When I was in school, a scheduled break felt like a reset. Winter Break, Spring Break, Summer Break...man, school was so great. Late each Fall, I'd work really hard to finish up projects and sit for final exams and then have a couple of weeks to sleep and play and get ready for fresh challenges in the New Year. I don't have two weeks this year, but I did carve out a week between Christmas and New Year's Day to reset. To me, the holidays are always a bit stressful, even when they're going well. It has been nice to have some days at home-- to sleep, to play, to go on long walks, and go out for late dinners. I really love my job and I am rewarded with kindness and insight from my clients nearly every day, but caring about people in such a deep way, and feeling so responsible and raw all the time makes me soul weary. Part of this is me, I know. I am getting better. But, I think I could probably stand to take more breaks, and I am certainly thankful for this one.
Like many, I will be glad to see this year go. I know that all of the sadness is not and has not been 2016's fault. I do not think the year has been cursed although I have truly felt this at times. Still, I am looking forward to 2017. I will turn 30 in 2017 which seems very strange. I remember when 30 felt so far away. I will become eligible and apply for an independent social work license in 2017. I will, I hope, continue to read and walk, and even blog on occasion in 2017. ;)
I hope that you are well and that you have found some rest this holiday season. I hope we can collectively reset.
We have a lot of work to do.